I had this reoccurring nightmare throughout most of my twenties:
I'm engaged to someone.
In fact, I'm minutes away from being married or it's the day before the wedding or worst of all: we just got married and I know IT'S WRONG!
I don't want to marry them.
I'm not supposed to marry them.
It does NOT feel good.
And, I start freaking out:
How am I going to get out of this? What do I say? Who do I say it to? How do I fake my own death right in this very moment to avoid this situation?????
Then I wake up and I breath deeply because I'm not married.
This dream came regularly while I was single, but while I was dating a few particular people it crept up as a nightly routine. Sometimes the reoccurring dream drove me so crazy that I broke up with people to make the dreams go away.
I'm happy to report that I never got this dream while Ryan and I were engaged (not even the first time we were engaged).
But the other night, the dream came again:
I was engaged. I was getting married to someone in a few days and I'm not miserable, but during the dream it dawns on me: I don't want to marry him. I want to marry Ryan.
I love talking to him.
I like being with him more than I like being with anyone else.
He's my best friend.
So, I started freaking out:
How do get out of my engagement? And more importantly, how do I convince Ryan that he's supposed to marry me???
And then I woke up with him right next to me and was relieved to find that somehow, I had already convinced him to marry me.
(pictures taken especially for Paige who so graciously gave us these adorable hats)
I'm engaged to someone.
In fact, I'm minutes away from being married or it's the day before the wedding or worst of all: we just got married and I know IT'S WRONG!
I don't want to marry them.
I'm not supposed to marry them.
It does NOT feel good.
And, I start freaking out:
How am I going to get out of this? What do I say? Who do I say it to? How do I fake my own death right in this very moment to avoid this situation?????
Then I wake up and I breath deeply because I'm not married.
This dream came regularly while I was single, but while I was dating a few particular people it crept up as a nightly routine. Sometimes the reoccurring dream drove me so crazy that I broke up with people to make the dreams go away.
I'm happy to report that I never got this dream while Ryan and I were engaged (not even the first time we were engaged).
But the other night, the dream came again:
I was engaged. I was getting married to someone in a few days and I'm not miserable, but during the dream it dawns on me: I don't want to marry him. I want to marry Ryan.
I love talking to him.
I like being with him more than I like being with anyone else.
He's my best friend.
So, I started freaking out:
How do get out of my engagement? And more importantly, how do I convince Ryan that he's supposed to marry me???
And then I woke up with him right next to me and was relieved to find that somehow, I had already convinced him to marry me.
(pictures taken especially for Paige who so graciously gave us these adorable hats)
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i have had this dream before as well. in my dream i'm with my ex and life is normal and then i realize i'm supposed to be with joel not my ex. and then i start wondering why i'm with my ex and what happened to joel and i just ditch my ex in my dream in whatever we're doing and i go looking for joel. :D
I've had a version of this dream, I still have it. It is always the same, I have to convince Spencer that we are married/should be married and that we shouldn't be dating other people.
nothing like a kissing pic. and those hats only add the the master piece!
if my reoccurring dream is me smoking and i wake up totally relieved that i didn't really smoke, what is this going to translate to in real life? as in, if you were glad that dream came true and you married ryan and not those other dudes, will i be glad when i finally find my ideal drug of choice?
you two are crazy cute!
I love how much you love Ryan. I had a friend comment to me when I got married that you don't have to lose the newlywedness, that silly giddiness and happiness.
And you don't.
Just keep up your crazy love, and it won't go away. Even when babies come along.
Congrats on finding your dream come true. :)
I had this dream a few months after I married Marc. Yes. I was so glad when I woke up married to him. And I'm still glad. And I'm happy to have wandered around on your blog today. You guys take great pictures. And have some pretty wonderful adventures.
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